Where do i begin? My mind is in a whirl as I figure out the words to type. A lot has happened in the past few months, the recent turn of events has just made things even more complicated yet enjoyable and has left me wanting more. I didnt think it was possible to be overwhelmed by all these feelings. Love,hate,joy,sorrow, wanting and not wanting at the same time. To reflect is to regret and i'm left here wondering how different everything would be....if only i could turn back the clock. Alas there is no point in looking back on what one should and could have done. Fate is a fickle bitch who has a penchant for torture, dangling my wants and needs right in front of me just out of my reach. But i guess i'm to blame as well, i realized that I have a sick tendency to want what i cannot have. I can only hope that denial works once more. Regardless of which I think i've come to terms with myself, the past, the present and the future. The person i was, the person i am and person i want to become. Somehow I've become strangely optimistic about the future, its like I've been reassured of whats to come ( together with all the bad parts, you cant really seperate the package). Once again this might all be due to my overimaginative head, life is unpredictable, no point planning, a rough guide will do fine. I might have finally found what was missing all this time.

On a lighter note, I've just got an ipod touch, my mp3 player died a long time ago, been using psp for music ( which doesnt really have much space after u add in the games ) . Academically my results fell a little, not too bad i guess but a pity really, i could have done so much better, i acknowledege the fact that i was not trying my best and i have no idea why either, lack of motivation perhaps? Guess this is a little wake up call for next semester. I've plenty to do for the holidays, the higlight being the hainan overseas community trip, its going to be an eye opener. One step closer to fufilling my goal of seeing the world. Finally started reading again, my personal escape from reality, i wonder when i'd go back to writing my story again. Got back to WoW, doesnt quite feel like the good old times but raiding is fun. The joy u get from grouping up with people to kill a boss is just plain fun, team work i guess. This blog post might lead to another long hiatus again,least till the hainan trip.
I'd bet you all reading this have no idea what the heck just happen to me lol. Nothing serious actually, its my brain acting up once more after so long. Its getting late and I need sleep.


After thoughts:
Our paths cross but never intertwined , think its possible to change it somehow?